Written piece
Afterlight
Sreerag C
India
About this piece
A raw expression of detachment and separation through a young mind. Trying to see the bigger picture through emotional drain. Just a simple realisation of how much fragile our connections are.
Afterlight
As wind cleared my coast, Things became clear.
The dark currents loosening its grip,
Clarity followed.
Your words reach me,
And it makes so much sense now.
I see now that your screams were language of weariness,
Not hatred.
I called you a regulator for my emotions,
I blamed you responsible for my distress.
But only now I touch the truth, your words were coming
From a tired souls vocabulary.
While struggling for clarity,
I was draining the threads of your
Unguarded mind –which trusted mine, confided in mine.
I was a big fool wandering my own ignorance.
It was not fair,
I caged your peace and called it love,
I didn't intend it, yet I became the storm that shattered your sails.
I shoulda known,
It wasn't a matter of words anymore,
It wasn't something i could fix,
I was too blind to notice.
My chest was heavy,
And I let your go unheard,I failed you out of selfishness.
Trying to explain,
I only wounded more.
I invaded a repetition of a painful pattern.
My desperation made me unsee your pain,
I was hurting you without meaning to but hurt you I did.
And it was wrong, so wrong.
I see it now, I harmed my precious one,
I made her cry, i caused pain.
I have no way of knowing how she can mend her heart.
Feeling powerless, deeply remorseful, overwhelmed by what I caused.
I stand in the quite aftermath,
Intention failed,
care arrived too late.
I feel small, stripped of excuses,
Bare of pride,
Marked by the price of not opening my eyes.
I wish if I could shape myself anew,
I wish my hands no longer stumble over the fragile pieces of your glassy heart,
I cannot unwrite the burn marks I inflicted,
The ghosts of my wrongs haunted beyond my reach.
I wish you find what you lost,
I hope you find love and cherish itwith or without me being a part of it,
I feel only love when I think of you.
No bitterness, no bloody remnants of excuses,
Only love.
Peace will find you; you earned it; you deserve it.I love you to my coreThe love you gave,
The smile you shared,
All carved within me.
Wishing you all light,
My wingless angel...